DIARY OF A MUSIC SCHOOL DROPOUT

Diary of a Music School Dropout

They tell you when you grow up

You can be anything you dream

I'm all grown up, I know they lied

They can't hear me when I scream

They say you can be a rockstar

I've tried but I never come close

They never tell you though

You can make the world go up in smoke

Won't let that stop me this time

CHORUS:
Eyes open while you sleep

'Cause I am coming around

Setting fires in the dark, you can only see a spark

I'm gonna burn it down

Woah, burn it down

Setting fires in the dark you can only see a spark

I'm gonna burn it down

I don't feel I live every day

I wake up and I am a new age

I'm older and wiser

But I don't know how I got this way

I don't know what I'm doing

Or where all the time in my life went

But I've got a match inside

Gonna light it before I am spent

Won't let this stop me this time

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Light a match inside my soul

Get it done before I'm old

Explode like gasoline inside

Everyone else runs and hides

Take pride in my art

Filled with ash inside my heart

Get it done before I'm done

Watch everyone else run

(REPEAT CHORUS)
(Overlayed second half of chorus:)
They tell you when you grow up

You can be anything you dream

I'm all grown up I know they lied

They can't hear me when I scream

They say you can be a rockstar

I've tried but I never come close

They never tell you though

I crashed my car

I think it's a sign from God

That I shouldn't be thinking of anyone but me

I crashed my car

I think it's a sign from God

That I shouldn't be thinking of anyone but me

Capitalism made me pay to be alive

Cannibalism - to me it seems alright

As long as you eat the facists of the nation

I'm running out of time, the time to be patient

I can't escape what the world has done to me

It's a sign from God that I just can't see

That I just can't see

I crashed my car

I think it's a sign from God

That I shouldn't be thinking of anyone but me

I crashed my car

I think it's a sign from God

That I shouldn't be thinking of anyone but me

CHORUS:

Do I even make a difference at all?

Will I ever receive the love I give?

Who would be there to catch me when I fall?

Would anyone know if I needed it?

I wish I didn't feel so small

Like my efforts are insignificant

Do I even make a difference at all?

Can you hear me?

Do I even make a difference at all?

I wear my heart on my sleeve

and I'm not sure if I'm proud

Or if it's just embarassing

I've learned to accept

that my boat doesn't need to be a cruise ship

A kayak floats just as well

Am I floating?

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Why can't you see

The only thing I want is a smile

From anyone

Why can't you see

That I don't know how

Do you notice

(REPEAT CHORUS) x2

I soul my soul

For an education

I'm not even famous

I didn't make it

They say they'll make your dreams come

Accomplish whatever the hell you want to

Become what you put your mind to

It's not true, it's not true, it's not true

They say it comes with a cost

Your money, your time, your joy is all lost

So give it a rest

Give up on your dreams before getting depressed

So shred your degree

Take back what they stole from our society

Forget every detail

I'll sell my soul to work in retail

You can waste my time, you can take my life

As long as I'm alive you won't take my pride

You can waste my time, you can take my life

You won't take my pride

They say it comes with a cost

Your money, your time, your joy is all lost

So give it a rest

Give up on your dreams before getting depressed

So shred your degree

Take back what they stole from our society

Forget every detail

I'll sell my soul to work in retail

I will always be your baby girl

No matter where I am in the world

I will love you endlessly

I promise to share our story

9:29 on a Saturday night

In late January

Came into the world cold and bright

But you are my sanctuary

That's the day it all started

I came into the world brand new

Teary-eyed and open-hearted

We knew this to be true

I will always be your baby girl

No matter where I am in the world

I will love you endlessly

I promise to share our story

Found out my brother was on the way

Sometime in 2003

And on that warm winter day

I knew our family was complete

Now I am older

Going out into a world brand new

No matter where I wander

I promise this will always be true

I will always be your baby girl

No matter where I am in the world

I will love you endlessly

I promise to share our story

I will always be your baby girl

No matter where I am in the world

I will love you endlessly

I promise to share our story

Your baby girl

I will always be your baby girl

No matter where I am in the world

I will love you endlessly

I promise to share our story

I don't wanna know what happens to me down the road but I don't really have a say in how everything goes

I don't want to remember how my life got to this but I can't forget because I have the bruises to prove it

I wrote these words at 16:

"A black hole where my hopes and dreams should be

I don't see a point in trying when I can't control whether I am living or dying

At 15 I lost all hope, and there's not much you can do to cope

The fear of failure brings me down, but I guess I'll know when I've been around"

I won't stand for this anymore

I don't wanna know what happens to me down the road but I don't really have a say in how everything goes

I don't want to remember how my life got to this but I can't forget because I have the bruises to prove it

I don't wanna live to see what everything becomes of me, the only thing I know is that I need to be free

I got one chance to live my life before I give up and die but it's so damn hard to put up a good fight

"I'm 18 years old and my world comes crumbling down. I don't know what life is all about, but I'd do anything just to get out. I don't know what to do and I don't think that I can make it through"

I won't stand for this anymore

I don't wanna know what happens to me down the road but I don't really have a say in how everything goes

I don't want to remember how my life got to this but I can't forget because I have the bruises to prove it

I don't wanna live to see what everything becomes of me, the only thing I know is that I need to be free

I got one chance to live my life before I give up and die but it's so damn hard to put up a good fight

Now I sit and sing in peace because it's become clear to me that I am in control of all that I see